I haven’t blogged for a while. In fact, I’ve been missing in action on a few fronts lately – my blog, twitter, even Facebook.
My words have just stopped flowing.
I’ve been mulling over a post explaining why I’ve gone missing in action. Why my flurry of blogging activity at the start of the year seems to have just vaporized into thin air.
Drafting this blog post in my head, I’ve thrown a few words around like:
“I’ve been very busy with work…”
“I’ve had lots of things happening on the home front…”
“My personal life is an explosion activity…”
But none of these excuses are true.
When I write, I have to write from the heart. It’s where I find the motivation and focus to find the right words to throw up on the screen in front of me. The more I believe in those words, the faster they flow, the longer they stick and the more sense they seem to make to not only me, but to other people too.
But lately when I sit down to write, the only stories I seem to be able to find in my heart are…well…mediocre.
Probably because the last few months have felt like just that:
Lately my world feels like it has been just one big constant flow of mediocrity, anchored by the occasional low. But these lows are definitely first world variety. You know, things like a few missed opportunities. A little bit of annoying ‘people stuff’. Just a steaming pile of mediocre gumpf really, when you consider it against the context of the big wide world.
So, I’m afraid there is nothing to see here. No hilarious tales of parenthood. No scathing social commentary. No witty repartee.
Rest assured I know this is just a phase. And I am also probably (ok, definitely) being hard on myself. And maybe tomorrow will bring something exciting? So I won’t go changing my blog name to ‘Mediocre Me’ just yet…
Anyone else feeling a lacklustre lately?
John James says
April 14, 2014 at 4:07 pmI know EXACTLY what you mean – there’s nothing happening in my life at the moment that is extra-ordinary… I’m just doin’ what I do…
Luckily my fiction writing hasn’t dried up – still plenty of interesting stuff happening in my imagination! 🙂
Lisa Lintern says
April 14, 2014 at 7:54 pmSo glad your words are flowing. Hopefully I will find an untapped well of ideas in my head and the words will gush again. 🙂
Kelly Exeter says
April 14, 2014 at 4:35 pmYou know I nearly called you on the weekend because I knew something ‘was up’. Then the weekend went pear shaped. Much like the rest of April really. But still, that shouldn’t have stopped me 🙁
In my world, mediocrity funks are brought on when something crashes my confidence. I get out of said mediocrity funks by looking that thing that crashed my confidence right in the eye. I find once I fully acknowledge ‘the thing’, it’s easier to move past that if I push it into the corner of my mind.
Now I am not going to assume your mediocrity funk is brought on by the same thing, but I will say that when I am trying to break free of ‘I suck’ … the fastest way to do it is try something new (ie something I’m not expected to be good at).
Something like Anna’s flash fiction for example: http://blog.annaspargoryan.com/tag/flash-fiction/
xxx
Lisa Lintern says
April 14, 2014 at 7:55 pmYou know me so well Mrs. And as always your motivating words are so true. I just have to stare a few things down at once. But I will bounce back. x
Lana says
April 14, 2014 at 4:56 pmHoping the mediocre phase passes quickly because I am selfish and I miss your posts. Hope the lows become highs very soon because I am not always selfish and I look forward to you feeling better xx
Lisa Lintern says
April 14, 2014 at 7:56 pmThank you gorgeous and kind Lana. Your comment just made my eyes mist over and my nose go all fizzy. xo
melissa says
April 15, 2014 at 9:40 amThose elusive words will be back soon Lis and you won’t be able to stop them flowing….take a different route next time you drive to the shop or go for a run…you never know what inspiration you might find around a different corner. Xo